Since I last wrote I got ill, flu, it really knocked me sideways. I managed to have 3 days off but it wasn’t wanting to move that quickly to fit in with my schedule. So I carried on. I ran a day workshop, I worked at the Yoga Show in London, I ran a retreat and then I had a meltdown.
Well it wasn’t that dramatic but last week I was so tired after having 3 very busy weeks and weekends that I don’t know what to do with myself. I felt so depleted that I didn’t know what I need to do to get my energy back. My digestion was so messed up that someone even asked me if I was pregnant I was that bloated!!!
So I went to the beach, the waves and sunshine lulled me to sleep. I came back and did some Yoga Nida. I felt a little better.
So I did this again the next day….and the next.
I then started to be able to think a little more clearly. I decided to try acupuncture for my tummy, I have never had it before. Needles were stuck in my quads (ouch!) and ears. I lay there trying to stay calm and breath whilst my thighs spasmed.
Afterwards I felt so tired, so relaxed, I came home did some more Yoga Nidra, had a salt bath and went to a Yin class.
The next day I treated myself to a Yoga Nidra and sounding workshop……ahhhh it was bliss. A combination of Yoga Nidra with an angelic soundbath and then singing from the heart. I felt healed.
By Sunday my energy was back and I was ice skating for the first time in 30 years outdoors by the Pavillion, amazing!
What I was reminded of through this;
- Be more careful with my time. I worked too many weekends in a row. Whilst I love my work my health, my relationship and my family are just as important.
- When I get ill, just stop until I am fully better, it’s ok to cancel sometimes.
- It’s so important to give to myself when I give so much to others. To really help others I have to look after myself.
- Devotional singing opens my heart and heals me. I want to do more of it.
- Acupuncture it amazing, my tummy is already so much better. I am going to go to this low cost clinic each week to maintain optimum energy levels & healing through my body.
- To just slow down and create space.
- Getting outdoors and just sitting in nature is so healing. Sunsets in Autumn are breath taking.
What I learnt on a deeper level that this pattern of mine to want to keep going with the things I really want to do even when I am ill is from childhood. It’s the little girl part of me that was sick a lot (with serious asthma) and was frustrated with my body for letting me down and stopping me from doing what I wanted to do. I hate it when things stop me and I have realised that I haven’t been as kind as I thought I was being to my body, I have been ignoring it. So my intention now is to love my body, be grateful for it and to listen to it’s needs.
Next week I am doing my Advanced Yin TT Course with my teacher Norman Blair, I can’t wait! 8 whole days of lovely Yin to myself. I will write again after and let you know how it went.