Connecting & Allowing

Last time I wrote my intention was connecting to “I Am”, to that state of being-ness which is our true Self. The essence of who we are, the unchanging energy that is always present, always there, never faltering with the fluctuations of the monkey mind.

I haven’t written since as I have really just been drawn to staying with this presence. My meditation practice and desire to connect is growing stronger and stronger and I am finding awareness of this state more as I go about my day to day life.

Over the Bank Holiday weekend we went to a yoga festival, Into the Wild, well I say yoga it was that and more; dance, workshops, live music, meditation, sound baths, creativity, kirtan and hanging out with friends. These festivals are wonderful they are a break from every day life, a chance to walk barefoot, turn phone off, be outdoors, and just flow from one lovely thing to another.

Sounds idyllic? Well it is but also I am noticing more that in these environments stuff is bought up to be released. There is a lot of healing work going on. Some workshops and general situations you come across there are challenging. I learnt this time my tendency to get so over excited about things, to place so much pressure on events being “fun”, “the best time” when actually sometimes they are really hard, then I feel disappointed that they aren’t so much fun after all. Expectations created by the mind are not met. I found myself noticing old patterns that don’t serve me anymore and it upset me, but actually I had the awareness and could deal with it there and then. I left feeling at peace, renewed and even more so wanting to explore this state I find in my meditation.

I am learning that you can’t be completely still in meditation, connected to this “being-ness” all the time but it is always there, it is who I am and to trust that life will flow even with out my mind organising, planning and fretting about things. Decisions will get made, situations will resolve, in the right time for them. I don’t have to try so hard to make everything happen, I can allow and trust.

So since return from the field of fairy houses, drumming, fire, beautiful music and sunshine I have been focusing on allowing.  Every thing is still getting done, and actually there’s been some lovely unexpected surprises.

So this is my intention for now; Connecting and Allowing.

Namaste xx

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Connecting to I AM

More and more my desire is to connect with “I am”, that is the feeling of presence, the feeling of just being, awareness of being part of this huge expansive unlimited energy that is all of us, all around us, in us and is Divine. It is Love.

I’ve experienced recently a craving, a yearning to connect with it more,  to feel it more and I’ve been feeling like I have to go somewhere to get that or find it in a book. When it’s in me all along and all I have to do is just sit. Just be. Nothing to do but draw within and connect.

It’s amazing how the mind distracts, comes up with all reasons to fidget, to make tea, to sort out the washing, to check emails….

I know yoga helps me to connect with it, it is the first practice that has lead me to this place. I know going to Church, kirtan, sound baths, group meditations have all guided me there too. Sometimes it feels overwhelming with all that is on offer to help take me there, so many ways, so many tools…..but really it is quite simple. I just need to sit and be.

I believe this connection to I AM, is connection to our Source. To God. I don’t believe there is only one religion that is right, I find the “we’re the only way” creates more barriers to connect to Love.

When I am just being I feel Love, I feel an innate joy, I feel inspired, I feel peace, I feel I know all there is to know. It really feels quite simple…….and then the mind kicks in and distracts 🙂

The more I practice connecting the easier it gets to slip into presence. Just starting for a few minutes a time is enough but then noticing the tendency to think “oh I have got it now, I have connected, now I will make a cup of tea!”Allowing myself to bask in it for as long as I can….why rush out?

This is my intention this week; I AM.

Namaste xx


 

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Space & Time

Wow it’s been a long time since I last wrote! After our wonderful wedding and honeymoon last year life suddenly got very busy, workwise and energetically I’ve had some big adjustments to process. The transition from living on my own to being a wife and a stepmother has been huge! Added in both of our work lives became very full and I have been trying to get my head above water ever since. I am really in awe of all you full time mothers out there!

Hence my intention currently of “Space”. My daily mantra is “I have all the space I need, there is enough time”. I even have it set as a daily reminder in my phone.

In my efforts to get everything done for my business, give Neil my attention, make time to fully be with the girls when they come round and keep in touch with my friends & family I have sometimes found myself depleted. I really feel blessed to have all I have in my life now, (all I have manifested through intention) but sometimes I’ve felt pulled apart in all directions. Self care has been crucial and my daily yoga practice. It’s been easy some days to tell myself there isn’t enough time for this and to just dive into work, but on those days I’ve really noticed a difference of not just allowing myself to just stop and connect with myself.

If you are relating to any of this at all and would like to join me in creating some space here are a few things that I am finding work for me:

  1. Morning ritual is crucial (or evening if you feel that works better for you). Whether it’s sitting with a cup of hot lemon and ginger and journaling, doing a physical yoga practice (10 mins – 1 hour what is possible) or sitting doing some breathing exercises and meditation. Something that just helps me to connect before starting the day. It’s from this time my inspiration and gratitude for the day bubbles up.
  2. Walking slowly. When I catch myself speed walking around to get from A to B and stop and slow. I take in all that is around me and breathe deeply. I might sync my steps to breathe in as I walk for 4 and out for 4.
  3. Make time to go and sit outside even for 20 minutes, and just be. Not reading, making a call, doing some work but just sitting quietly outside.
  4. If I have been sitting at my computer for a while making the effort to move around, and stretch.
  5. Catching myself when I am rushing, noticing when I am tensing and consciously relaxing that area.
  6. When we have the girls for the weekend, I have discovered it’s important to take myself away for an hour or two if possible. Whether it’s to do a yoga class or meet a friend. I need me time while they are there so then when I go back I can really enjoy being fully present with them.
  7. Avoiding saying yes to everything and making sure I have planned space in my diary so I don’t over commit. I am a planner so I actually plan now to have free weekends!
  8. Being present. Being in a relationship is such a mirror, it reflects back at you all the things you love and dislike about yourself! As much as I practice being in the moment, I catch myself when I am with Neil still thinking about work or what I am going to do next. Right now my practice with him is being with him 100% when we are together. It’s so easy to slip out of this when you live with someone and have been together for a while.
  9. When you really really want to do something there is always time and energy. So looking at what is draining you an as much as possible cutting that out or at least minimising it for now until you can, then treating yourself to something that does lift you after you have done it.

Since creating space my desire for writing this is bubbling up again and I still so want to write a book, the intention is still there I’ve just been taken on a few side trips. Life flows that way sometimes. So you can expect to hear from me a bit more now sharing on living life with intention!

Namaste

Louise x

 

 

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Planning a Wedding

unnamedYS0VCBZ7I’ve just finished listening to a wonderful interview with Julia Cameron, who wrote The Artist’s Way, about creativity and writing. It immediately made me think of this blog and how I haven’t written it for ages! 2016 has been a whirlwind so far with a busy work life and planning a wedding!

Typical to me, once I have an idea or project I don’t hang around. We got engaged in December and are getting married in nearly 3 weeks, 11th June. I don’t think we realised at the time of setting the date how much is actually involved in planning a wedding, there is so much to think about, including moving in together!

Plus when I turned 40 last year I had the intention of going on a special holiday in my 40th year to celebrate, any excuse to travel, but little did I know it would be my honeymoon! We’re off to explore Bali and Lombok straight after the wedding.

At the beginning of all the planning I set the intention of having fun, to be relaxed and in the moment when planning the wedding. I didn’t want it to get stressful like you hear other people talking about. I want to enjoy the process of planning it rather than showing up on the day frazzled and just glad it’s all over.

This intention has been tested, of course, planning a wedding can get extremely overwhelming and it can lead to be the only thing you are ever talking about.

What has really helped, aside from my amazing parents and fiancé, is yoga. Especially Yin yoga, which is slow, mindful and encourages you to get into a state of just being and allowing, rather then doing. In fact I would say I have really connected even more so with my yoga practice this year and dived deeper into it.

I still have to pinch myself to check this is all real, I can’t actually believe I am getting married in a few weeks. It’s an unbelievable feeling to know I am going to be with Neil forever and I am 100% sure it is what I want. I don’t think I have ever been so excited about anything (I’m waking at 5am every day now!), it’s so wonderful to be part of a team. I have always been such an independent solo person, but now it really is so lovely to share everything with someone else, who I love with all of my heart.

When I catch myself wondering about bunting, what lighting we should order and whether the marquee with blow away in the wind or if there will be a monsoon on the day I remind myself……none of that really matters. What does is us sharing such a special day with our family and friends……and having fun!

The next time I write this I’ll be married! 🙂

Namaste

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The Power of Intention!

IMG_474721st December 2014 – my intention written in my intention book

I am love, I am surrounded by love. I am in a healthy loving committed relationship. I am with a man who loves me just for being me. I share myself fully with him. He makes me feel loved just as I make him feel loved. We share everything with each other.

 

22nd December 2015

I am ENGAGED to this man 🙂

How amazing that my intention has come completely true within 1 year.

I hadn’t met Neil when I wrote that on 21st December 2014, but did just a few hours later. On the Winter and Summer solstice I like to take time to write my intentions, what I’d like to create in my life, in my special book. It’s really interesting to look back over it and see what has manifested in my life. Writing them down is a way for me to let them go. I know the risk of getting too attached to creating something in your life, getting desperate to make it happen can only push what you really want away. So I write it down, let it go and just focus on “being” what i’d like to manifest. In this case, being love.

I’m sharing this with you to demonstrate the power of intention! We’re coming up to a New Year, what would you like to create? Write it down (in the positive, rather than what you don’t want) and then ask yourself:

How will I be being when I have that in my life?

Then set that way of being as your intention. Every day focus on being that way. For example: being happy, being courageous, being creative, being present, being love.

One of my favourite quotes is by George Bernard Shaw – “Life isn’t about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself”. Go create!

If you’d like some help and inspiration to kick off the New Year, I am running a 2 day workshop in Brighton called The Power to Create. The 2 days will include; yoga, meditation, visioning, journaling, life coaching and sound healing. To find out more see my Create Yourself site.

Namaste & HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Louise xx

 

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Peace

candle-flame-freeIn light of everything going on in the World right now Peace is the intention I feel that is needed the most.

Watching the news, which is something I usually avoid doing too much, can easily start to instil fear into our minds. Fear and hatred.

Fear and hatred are not going to help though.

It’s surprised me how when something so tragic there has been so much judgement of others reactions to it all via social media. When really the most powerful response I can see is to share peace and love.

I find it tragic that this small group, IS, can taint the power of prayer and God’s name so much.

Just the week before Friday nights attack in Paris I had been celebrating Diwali with my yoga classes, lighting candles to symbolise light overcoming darkness. I had been to a powerful church service that had left me feeling at peace and inspired. I’d visited Amma in London, with 1000s of others, and had been overwhelmed by God’s loving presence through her.

All this I experienced was nothing to do with the energy that is running through and guiding IS to behave in the way they do. God is not involved with these people, only darkness is.

Of course we all know this darkness is causing death and destruction all over the world, not just in Paris. How do we respond?

With Peace. Hatred is not going to help, this is why they are doing it. This doesn’t mean doing nothing, we can be in action to help those in need.

I am not an expert, I have no idea how the Government should be handling this, all I can do is control my reaction to it and how I am in the world. I choose to continue to pray to a loving God for peace for all beings in this world. I choose to light a candle for all those suffering when I practice yoga. I choose to be peaceful in my actions and interactions with others. I choose to be kind and help others when I can.

Like Ghandi said “be the change you wish to see in the world”.

Namaste

x

 

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Balance

What a summer!12011150_10153003641926854_2281817563520117346_n

7 festivals; Yoga/ Buddhist and Christian, and Camp Bestival

Teaching yoga at 2 of them; Camp Bestival and Into the Wild

2 full workshops in Brighton

I ran my first retreat abroad in Turkey

Plus I turned 40!

As we reach the Autumn Equinox, a time of balance between light and dark, I am feeling the pull myself of needing to rebalance.

I have pushed my comfort zone this summer, I’ve done things that scare me a little, which I know is always great for me to develop further. Courage requires energy though. Stepping up, ignoring the fearful feelings and going for it anyway.

Right now on this Autumnal Equinox I am feeling the need for the intention of balance. Time to stop. Time to reflect on all I have achieved. Time to acknowledge myself and give myself a rest.

I know if I do this my energy will return in no time, as opposed to ignoring the pull to stop and charging ahead anyway. Which usually results in my getting ill and being forced to stop!

BALANCE.

Where are you out of balance in your life?

Are there any areas that feel darker than light?

What do you need to do to bring your body, mind and Spirit back to balance?

Love yourself enough to listen and do what you need.

Namaste

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Turning 40!

40 is fast approaching, just a week left of being in my 30s and I have to say I am excited. Turning 40 to me symbolises being in my power as a woman, acknowledging all I have learnt and achieved so far.

Reflecting on this I was going to write a letter to my younger self giving myself advice but actually thinking about it I wouldn’t have done anything different. I know I was a bit wild in my 20s and often feel like I wasted a lot of time in clubs/recovering from clubs but I believe that was all part of my journey.

My past; my heart breaks, my illness, my self destructing behaviour and beliefs all lead me to the path of personal development and spirituality. It all happened in it’s own perfect timing.

Maybe one thing I would share with my younger self is that thoughts create our reality. I never felt good enough and this led me to accepting treatment from others that wasn’t supportive for me. I felt I’d need to be drink to be the most fun version of myself. For years I lived into the belief I was a sickly child. For most of my life I didn’t sing believing I couldn’t!

Learning about intention, creating my vision, trusting it will flow when the time is right and until then being the best I can in each moment has been transformational.

Oh and perhaps one more thing……to trust my intuition. There have been so many times over the years when I have had a feeling about a person or situation and ignored it not wanting to believe it. Then later on wishing I’d just listened to my inner guidance system! Again though, it was all just part of my path.

I’ve loved my thirties and they say life just gets better as you get older. Well right now in this moment it certainly feels it’s the best it’s ever been!

My intention for my 40s? BE LOVE, BE PRESENT & BE COURAGE!

Namaste

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Just Be

create5Life is spent so much doing. Working, learning, moving, talking, cooking, cleaning….

How often do we really spend just being. That is just doing nothing.

This is one of the things I love about yoga, especially a yin practice, where you get into a pose and just be in it. No movement apart from your natural breath. Sometimes in a day I will just sit on the floor and just close my eyes to just be. Then more often I get busy and forget to!

Another aspect of being is just being yourself. Dropping the striving to be somebody, to prove your value in this world, to be a better person, to be enough.

We’ve all been created perfectly just as we are. Just as we are has special qualities and talents that we have to share in this world, our purpose in life.

It’s so easy to forget this though. I know I have a tendency to keep learning new things, I love learning and developing myself. Whilst it’s amazing to learn, somewhere under this though could perhaps be a seeds of not feeling enough with what I’ve got already. Just being aware of this can serve as a signal to centre myself and remind myself of all the wisdom I have within already.

As I have got older and been on this evolutionary path of yoga and self awareness for 10 years I can notice that I am more myself now than I have ever been. What has highlighted this to me recently is being in a new relationship where I am completely being myself.

I can see how that my past relationships have all been preparing me for this one. There were elements in all the past experiences where I didn’t feel quite enough for who I was with. I needed to exaggerate or diminish part of my personality.

I cut down to a minimum drinking, in general but especially on dates, a few years ago, when I was younger I found I used alcohol to give me confidence and to open up more. I don’t hide behind drink now and I love getting to know someone completely consciously. I hardly wear any make up now, another thing I know I used to hide behind.  I’m now sharing the things I would have been scared to tell a partner for fear they would go off me. To put it simply I am just being me, and if he doesn’t like it he can go but what is amazing is that I have never felt such love from a man as I do from him. And because I am just being myself I know he really does love me for me.

For me right now my intention is to JUST BE around my work and through out each day. As I have written about before I have a tendency to get into busy/ striving mode. So just being is a reminder to stop each day and do nothing.

I know when I do this I create space for my body to relax, creativity to flow and the ability to listen to my higher self/ God.

So for now, just be.

Namaste

Louise x

 

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Create Space. Breathe.

Create SpaceI’ve been experiencing tension recently, in the body and mind. Of course over the years I’ve learnt that it’s my thoughts that create the tension in my body.

It’s the times when I am feeling in a rush to get something done, to get somewhere, to achieve that my middle back and tummy tenses.

It’s worries about the future when  I feel it in my shoulders, neck and lower back.

I am sure these must be common tensions of people working for themselves. Being self employed is a constant practice in patience, determination, faith and being in the moment.

I love what I do and couldn’t imagine doing anything else now. I wouldn’t swap it for the world but every now and then I need a reminder to stop to create space. To breathe into any tensions.

Thankfully being a yoga teacher I am continually being reminded to pay attention to my breath, which helps to expand and create space. Mindful, expansive movement frees up space in the body.

My flat is feeling cluttered, I am sure it’s all that time I spend in more over the winter. It’s time to have a sort out and throw out!

My mind has been a bit overwhelmed with fearful thoughts. It’s time to meditate, breathe into the tensions and release the thoughts that do not serve me.

The breath is amazing. I know this isn’t any ground breaking news but just stopping, closing your eyes and focusing on your breath is just so calming. It lets the brain and body know everything is ok in this moment. If I wasn’t you wouldn’t be able to be sitting there breathing deeply and slowly, would it?!

Creating space helps me to think more clearly. To not be attached to things being a certain way. To trust the flow of life. To free up my body. To be open to the unknown. To relax.

Create space. Breathe.

Namaste

Louise x

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